Tears welled in Mary’s eyes as she said, “I’m feeling out of control, George. I seem to be surrounded by chaos, and I can’t seem to find any space away from it.
Abuse | Physical | Emotion
Most of us probably know someone who always says the ‘right’ things, but unfortunately what they do never seems to match what they say.
After a relatively relaxed eight months since moving interstate, life seems to be well and truly ‘on the move’ once more, the only difference is that I am now much more aware
I know you are there In the back of my mind but I am not sure what you’re wanting to find Are there certain emotions or feelings you seek
Earlier today police arrest a 38-year-old Victorian man who flew to Queensland with the intent of meeting a 14-year-old girl and having sex with her.
A roller-coaster day of possibilities, slammed into oblivion one-by-one. The result is a feeling of deflation, exhaustion, loneliness, and…
Sometimes you feel you are all alone. Sometimes you think no one cares. Sometimes it seems no one is listening. Sometimes it seems everyone glares. – But, sometimes it’s just our minds that tells us we’re neglected, tricking us into believing we are worthless, not worthy of being loved. – It is our mind that […]
The nightmares never end… Blake says I was only dreaming, that the Monster isn’t real. My screams woke him, and shattered the silence of the night.
I am not completely sure of the reason or reasons why, but my ‘life’ seems to have come to a screeching halt when I was 12. Everything revolves around this age. This is the age I regress to when the darkness hits and I am overwhelmed by even the smallest requirements of being a functioning human being. This is the age that haunts my, all-too-regular, nightmares. This is the age when I stopped dreaming about
Something I have often heard in the two years since my father committed suicide is “Didn’t you think about the consequences?”Not only have people asked me these things directly, they have also said very similar things about me to people who supported me in my decision to break the silence on being sexually abused as a child. Every time I hear this question, my
Along the healing journey, it is common to hear comments from others, such as, “You don’t know what it’s like for me,” “I went through so much worse than you,” “He only did it to me, so it doesn’t matter,” “You don’t understand,” and “He only touched me, so why I am having so much […]
Pope Francis asks for forgiveness for child sex abuse by priests, says sanctions ‘must be imposed. Hmm… with a headline like that, how could I not read the article? To be clear, I am not a Catholic, nor do I know the Pope personally, or in any other capacity, however, I have read many articles expounding his virtues and generally indicating that he is a pretty decent bloke.
I Just want to be normal “I just want to be normal!” If only I had a dollar for every time I have said this, or any of its many variations, because I would be Rich, Rich, Rich – yes, Rich with a capital R! My diaries are filled with this statement, along with “Why […]
I was thinking, if I don’t speak out, I’ll regret it on my death bed.” Dylan Farrow Candle lit for victims of violence Dylan Farrow, 28, is the adopted daughter of Mia Farrow and Woody Allen. In 1992, at age 7, she accused Woody Allen of sexually abusing her. The ensuing custody battle case wound […]
“From small acorns, mighty oak trees grow…” Geoffrey Chaucer’s‘Troilus and Criseyde‘ Inspiration: My Name Is Luka… Suzanne Vega – Luka My name is Luka – Lyrics via azlyrics.com I live on the second floor I live upstairs from you Yes I think you’ve seen me before If you hear something late at night Some kind of trouble. some kind of […]
First of all, I want to state this is my opinion about what I feel is a shame for this country and the state of New Jersey. Secondly, my condolences go out to Whitney Houston’s family in their time of grief. It’s always hard to lose someone you love to early in their life. The […]
Almost ten months have passed since I posted Part 1 on this topic, on April 29, 2011. Time for an update! Cutting to the chase for the time period, I must announce that Karen and GW-1 (Ghostwriter 1) recently parted ways, and so for the moment this blog subject will take the form of a […]
‘Thumbs up’ to me My coping strategies are changing. Flashbacks have been a part of my life for almost 20 years now, but they have been increasing over the last 12 months. In addition, I have also been experiencing what I term ‘regression’, where I not only have a flashback or extremely vivid memory, but […]
TRIGGER WARNING This post may contain triggers for those who have experienced sexual abuse. Don’t stereotype me… Seriously, do I have to be a ‘feminist’ just because my father raped me? After realising that I don’t feel safe enough (yet) to talk to my counsellor about many things associated with the sexual abuse I experienced […]
By Charles Redfern The Roman Catholic bishop of Spokane issued a thoughtful ten-point response to the so-called “John Jay Report,” formally entitled, The Causes and Context of Sexual Abuse of Minors by Catholic Priests in the United States, 1950-2010, and released in May by the John Jay College of Criminal Justice. The Most Reverend Blase […]
“What goes up, must come down.” That’s a saying that I hear every now and again, and I guess in a way it has always been descriptive of my moods. Having said that, you would expect that after feeling so good last Thursday my moods would have taken a downward plunge, but, surprisingly, I still […]
I can’t think, I can’t sleep, at times I can barely complete a sentence and yet, somehow, I seem to be functioning at a level that is socially acceptable – to family, at least. The emotional turmoil, and yet calmness, of the last 24 hours is not something I can easily describe. I am desperate […]
Ok, I think I have run out of excuses for my lack of regular posting. I have been trying to uncover the ‘real’ reason for days now, and the only thing I can come up with is ‘fear’, but then as soon as I start to dig a bit deeper along that line of thinking […]