A few days ago, the world lost an incredibly talented human being, Robin Williams. His death has been reported as an apparent suicide,
Depression | Sadness | Suicide
When I learn that someone has died, I always send up a quick prayer to my sister, organizer of angels, so that she will welcome them into her part of the universe. I make a special urgent request that she do so when it’s someone that has died unexpectedly or senselessly, so that he or she(…)
Doubts. Doubts. Doubts. Doubts are everywhere. Doubts are surrounding me, engulfing me, consuming me. Doubts are eating at my soul, piece by piece, morsel by morsel. What am I doing? I’ll never be good enough. I am never good enough. Useless, hopeless, ridiculous. No one understands. No one knows the truth. What is the truth?(…)
I’ve got so much filtering through my head. I don’t know where to begin. When I started my eating disorder program last November, I really felt that the travel to wellness was going to happen. After exposure to some other groups and such; I’ve had different emotions arise, many I hadn’t expected or dreamed of.(…)
This is my second year writing about sharing the importance of making March 1 – Self Injury Awareness Day. Many aren’t aware of this day and its importance and there are those that may be misinformed into thinking it is only about self harm as in *trigger warning* cutting and the like. I am going to attach a picture of the many ways a person self harms,
A child’s exposure to violence can have consequences for his development. Children exposed to violence are more likely to have internalizing and externalizing behavior problems (Peled 1995). Risk factors have a cumulative impact and can span over 5 domains. In other words, the more risk factors spread out over multiple domains one has, the greater the likelihood for serious delinquency ang gang involvement.
I have been dreading this exercise yet I know I have to go through this exercise to start the work to getting to the other side. The healing side. The purpose of this exercise is to start to make the connection between my eating disorder and the reasons why behaviors exist. I know why it is called the “Onion”, I learned years ago it’s about the layers and layers of stuff that separate me from my behavior.
My long term relationship with untreated depression helped fuel that direction. It seemed safer that way and work was the perfect excuse. Work got twisted into an unhealthy coping strategy. I could justify keeping the world away by framing my behavior as “going the extra mile” for something important.
In my initial article, Let Go of Fear and Hit Publish, I shared my fall 2012 plunge into double depression that led me to the ultimate crossroad on New Year’s Eve of 2013. Now, one year later I find myself coming to new important crossroads. It’s much different now as the meditation and Bikram yoga combined with numerous(…)
My name’s Duncan Bethel and I’ve spent most of my 49 years living with chronic depression combined with recurrent episodes of clinical depression. There’s a trauma/ PTSD history mixed in there as well. I’ve also worked with and/or on behalf of youth and families involved with children’s mental health, special education, juvenile justice and child welfare(…)
Last night while watching TV a commercial appeared that went something like this. (Note: imagine this being voiced over by a minor celebrity from the Seventies whose career stalled after several DUIs.) “Is your life so empty that you don’t care your kids are now covered in tattoos heralding a Zombie Apocalypse, or that your(…)
I live in a part of the world where the sun isn’t supposed to shine in February. And yet earlier this month, we enjoyed three or four consecutive days of sunshine – a welcome mid-winter break for even those who claim to embrace the rain. Sunshine means trips to the park and plenty of backyard(…)
“Make the most of your regrets; never smother your sorrow, but tend and cherish it till it comes to have a separate and integral interest. To regret deeply is to live afresh.” Henry David Thoreau Weekly Photo Challenge: REGRET… Loss opens the door to memories of what could have been… Weekly Photo Challenge: REGRET… for(…)
I walked to the edge of the island and entered the water. It was bathed in light and I could almost see the current as it flowed briskly around the submerged bank of sand and over the rocky ground beneath the river. I took my heart down to the river’s edge, where I intended to leave it by the shore. I(…)
Yesterday someone in my life took his own life. I was devastated
by the news…but only worried about what brought him there…not anger because he
did it. No one can know the last thought of anyone who dies…by disease or by
their own doing. T…